Mirage

Flickering lamp holds the breeze,

Curtains quiver to expect next,

Moon light sparse enough to reveal,
curves that smoke my sanity

An invite into the her world

until the lamp burns out..

silence now a killer..


A pause that stops my world…

will you speak now,

my love,
or should I?

Mad rush calms that moment…

there is neither the room
nor her…

just a chamber in my mind…

her memories as breeze…

yet one heart bleeds alone

by the shadows

path to peace long gone..

to the gallows
in the name of love 

futile search for answer…

Was it all a Mirage?

Why!

The state of trance
between the world of hearts
with that of real

Like the nails that bled my chest

Make it clear to me.. Lord
now and ahead..

only you shall exist in me..”

Viswaroopam – what the…

Coming out of the film, I had not much of an opinion. The theater was full, most of them wanted to see why it was banned and some for Kamal. I kinda fell into both categories and obviously my movie addiction was another reason.

The movie began with the choreography by Briju Mahraj – that was very refreshing, though I do not get that character portrayal of Kamal, I was like “what was Avvai Shanmugi doing in the film” ?

The movie did start of well, infact I loved every bit of the first 45 minutes, though almost predictable. I did not get any much logic that sat in the film, it was very disoriented. I could clearly see that the movie had been taken for more than 2 years, obviously the amount of jump skip and connect, clearly visible.

The film had its brilliance, as a lover of history and detail, I certainly liked a lot of middle part. I just missed the ‘H’ history channel logo to the right side of the screen. I liked a lot of detail and I could see a lot of importance given to locales and sets, however, one cannot stop laughing at the tall boy with a false beard who played Osama! Kamal MUST leave this fascination of make up, he simply cannot change any one to any one!

As a maker deserves credit for capturing emotions and scenarios. There is no logic, so disorientation and sequence breaks are clearly allowed. Also, a pointer to Kamal, please get good american actors, who are really much better on screen. Who ever did that casting must surely be fired and never recruited, if it was Kamal… then sorry bro – you are fired.

Coming to the reason why the film may be a hit:

Yes, Viswaroopam sure is very anti jihadi movie and if a person does favor the sort of jihad that goes around in taliban then they must be offended, i really do not get why some are offended in india! What has Jihad gotto do with offending sentiments of Indian muslims, it would be great to have some clarity in that.

If you ask me, hindus could be offended, americans will be offended and of course I am offended that the hype was created for no reason!

The truth also be it that those protesters saved the movie for it was bound to bite the dust for shoddy screenplay and loose ends. Clearly, the genius in Kamal has avoided an alavandan!
Almost all just want to see ‘why the hell did people oppose’ !

For a movie with a heavy subject such as this, definitely kamal or desi makers dont cut to the chase if this is all that you can think of as a standard. Shekar Kapur – are you the same one who did the movie Elizabeth? I cannot believe this!

The movie over all, was a tamil film, not the best but never the less, had its moments.

However – A honest request.. please do not compare to thuppaki and thandavam.. this one is way beyond those silly movies…

But then please never equate to batman or zero dark 30…
That sort of insult is not needed to hollywood…

Over all.. its not a great movie but i say it is ok it coz someone dared to go the distance… the fact that he failed is immaterial to me. I wont say hats off to Kamal but I would recommend watch the movie… but wait for the DVD.

PS: Its high time Indian big shot directors cut beyond their mountainous ego and make good movies for the world stage. Hype does not sell in International market. Also, just because you need to join a 100Cr club, there is no need to spend recklessly, clearly some shots were aimed at wasting money.

The Land of Rape & Honey

Gladly, 2012 is gone, the world did end very premature of course… for a young woman in India, several children and a young man in the USA. It is one of those days, where one really wants to start positive but lands up writing about some burning issue. The problem is, there are just too many burning.

The situation with the brutal gang rape and murder of a young woman by some beasts was one such that requires at least a few words from every individual across the globe.

I really feel sorry for the woman, as a man I am immensely saddened by the beasts who wore the cloak of a man and did this to her. Rapists have no gender, they do not belong to any human species either. As a father of a daughter, I am more worried about safety and future of my daughter in a seemingly fast world that has memory as effective as a twitter status feed.

The capital punishment is an optimal solution to outraging the modesty of a human but I feel it is not the cure to a problem. It is only adding roadblocks to one route. The human mind is one of the best evolutionary products on earth, it will find a way to work around fear, like our ancestors who had conquered fire.

There are two type of victims, ones that are dragged into fire and others that fall into fire when playing with it. There is no proper ratio that divides these categories. Analyzing the social structure problem we are into, it can be seen that the nation has progressed quite far but what is the ethical background adopted.

A society that is not totally western yet totally influenced by violence, sex and material pursuits. The only heartening factor is that India does not have a US type 2nd amendment in place. So, what would be the connection between material pursuits and other issues here? Well it is deeply rooted, according to me. A principled life is very essential but here the definition of principled is so screwed up. I know of women who believe in sex as ‘borrowed pleasures’, I know of men who think its cool to have one nights. While each person is entitled to do what they want, in just a business sense, this behavior is very risky.

A skewed culture and polarized emotions with very short memory expectancy and a growth based on individualistic definitions of wealth accumulation, has each one defining their own ways of life, its difficult to find a common ground. Something like, the pot calling a kettle black!

The words – “MC BC” and foul language with perverted thoughts (among both men & women) is common across the country, I find it awkward to light a candle. Especially if the audience in one sector, launch a heavy protest for Rape on the streets and there is a record viewers for Honey singh’s rap in just about 80 hrs after cremation of the victim…

The greatest cause for concern to me is that this ancient nation, now embracing the likes of Rape & Honey, has taken its eye of the ball. Its time to swallow a hard pill and go back to understanding the roots of our culture, without any side tracked questions.

So, where do we start to have a look – again the answer always is in the mirror, I would also add that the answer is in our heritage.

- R

Skanda – the beginning of me

Skandar Anubuthi is a series of 51 hymns written in Tamil (South Indian language) by Saint Arunagiri.

These hymns are a description of realization forms true to the extreme bliss of enlightenment, the hymn’s purpose is to ‘feel’ the source of energy or bliss pass through.

“Anubuthi” is a process where it is subtly yet clearly mentioned how to access this cosmic force of knowledge and enjoy the bliss beyond the barriers of time and mortal frame.

The series I am intending to write as notes is to dissect these in a metaphysical manner to help understand a different perspective to the Anubuthi.

I started off with verse 51 as the climax gives a glimpse of what he intends us to learn. Now coming from the beginning start off with verse 1!

The first hymn is dedicated to Lord Ganesha, who is believed to be the energy of sound and vibrations.

It is as below:

The hymn as is in Tamil.

nenja— kanakallu nekilnTh— uruka,  

thanjath— aruL shaNmukhanuk— iyal sEr 

senjot punai maalai chiRanThidavE, 

panjakkara aanai paTham paNivam.

Literal Meaning – from Skandagurunatha.org site

Even the hardened stony heart melts and liquefies  

By the grace, to one that takes refuge, Shanmukha bestows; 

That this sweet word-garland to Him be glorious 

To the five-armed Lord’s Feet bow let us. 

 “Let us bow to the Lotus-Feet of the Five-armed Lord (Sri Vighneshvara) for the renown of this garland (Kanthar Anubhuthi), knit of beautiful Tamil language, to Lord Shanmukha, Who, on the one that takes refuge in Him, showers His Grace that liquefies and melts even a hardened stony heart.”

Delving deeper:

If you think science and logic does not make sense with these versions alone, read further, however as with many such documents – there is more logic with science as a theory than with grounded proof.

Dedicating the deciphering to the Lord Almighty who is everywhere, I begin!

Prologue to the hymn:

We, humans, like any other living being form a part of the cosmic universe and a micro granular part of its delicate balance. As with every living being we have been given our tools to communicate with the parent property.

First, in many religions in the Indian practice, why does every one pray Ganesha before starting anything, be it driving a car or starting a work or be it starting a prayer.

The concept is not just myth or symbolic, it is philosophical  and has a true embedded sense. To understand one of the aspects of this, we need to understand what prayer does. Prayer is a way the mind connects to the universal energy or cosmic force to find a balance to its need.

While nature is all about balance, to find our place in the balance (if there is a requirement to do so), a prayer is necessary. It can be as simple as ‘Oh God’ or ‘Help me Lord’ or as complex as soundarya lahiri. Prayers can communicate an SOS sort of signal or receive a cosmic vibration as a reception to the human body and mind.

Ok so I am saying this sloka or mantra – for example, Anubuthi so many ever times and why is nothing happening?

Truth is the odds of that sort of involuntary chanting can get us no where or possibly 1 step as in curiosity in some place of our progress. Infact, I personally think its more dangerous to do that, based on the planetary constellations and their effects, this sort of work would deteriorate the belief syste. (Planetary vibrations are beyond the scope of this discussion).

Keeping it a bit short now, the way to get the best benefits out of the mother ship (everything that is in the universe works under physics / chemistry / math – like e=mc2/f=ma etc – simply said they already exist).

But how to is the big question and as said before, the tool which is inbuilt in us – the mind, is the only way to connect. Science is yet to come up with an accurate answer to figure out the mind, you may however find answers in myths / legends / harry potter (occlumency) so on and so forth. So this is an ambiguous yet only answer.

Now its left to the reader to use help of the internet demi-god to find more about the speed of mind and  premonitions etc. Those can give a bigger insight to the actual statements “Knowledge is Power” and “The universe is inside you” (as in quantum physics).

I stop here with the prologue and say that the way a prayer works is to channel the elements that clog the power of mind to make sort of a concentrated force of beam to the mother ship (universal energy), this is precisely what our Lord Ganesha does, as you will find out from below. Depending on the power and force of transmission, time and delivery happen, but the answer is never a no!

Getting into details of the first hymn!

nenja— kanakallu nekilnTh— uruka, (Tamil verse)

The heart (Nenju) as in the drive of feel from the mind, this is the primary element that must merge to the ocean of cosmic bliss. It is heavy, clouded (Kana Kallu) and does not melt that easily. The first basic step is to ensure the heart and mind are in sync with the singular thought of invoking the energy force, for that it must melt (Negiznthu uruga) and see the grace of the universe and its magnitude.

thanjath— aruL shaNmukhanuk— iyal sEr (Tamil Verse)

To surrender (thanjath) one’s self to the lord of 6 faces ( Shanmuka – The force in five directions and the sixth present as we see inside, this is witnessed when the heart melts, we see us as a constituent of the universe and surrounded / merged by it and we give in (Iyal ser) to the Lord.

senjot punai maalai chiRanThidavE, (Tamil Verse)

Words of wisdom are now (Once heart melts) in Truthful forms as a garland of words (Senchor Punai malai), we go about to praise the glory of the Lord (Siranthidave)

panjakkara aanai paTham paNivam. (Tamil Verse)

He who controls the five elements (Panja kara – each limb – Kara – symbolizing each element) Aanai(Ganesha), we beg and bow to the master of senses to set forth a focus that can send a clear sight / signal of the prayer.

The four known elements and the 5th – be it Akasha or dark matter or c2, forms the human body, as it is made,helps plant energy vibrations from existing and surrounded cosmic resources into it. As they are here, they control the mind and attract more disturbances, not enabling the amount of focus / concentration needed.

Ganesha,with an elephant head, holding a pasam and ankusam, representing the human mind as that of an brutal elephant force and the tools that the mahot uses to focus the elephant head to be focused and concentrated. We bow at the feet of the Lord of 5 elements (Patham panivom) to grant us that chanel of mind.

This channel of mind is critical for any prayer to be successful, there in stands the essence of this verse as with any other.

In this case, to invoke the path and experience of the ultimate bliss and witness the power of universe, a request is made to gift the mastery of words.

- R

Against Gravity

Love is a difficult term to comprehend. It has different meanings to different people at different times. A simple permutation / combination can give quite a lot of possibilities on definition.

I read a while back that Vishwamitra left his wife Menaka when she gave birth to a daughter. That sounds very brutal indeed. But did that happen in reality ? Not many can say.

The man was a sage, she comes to him and seduces him, they fall in love and one day he finds out that she was doing it as a part of a plan.
In that case, why love the man ?

Well, women are difficult to read, but broken he was left the scene to become a brahma rishi, the greatest of them all!

Love here, I believe is responsible for a sage becoming a brahma rishi. More importantly, we do not hear the name Menaka ever after that episode (until she takes in her daughter for safety during pregnancy).

Without the Sage, her name does not exist. Without her, the brahma rishi is not there.

So much she had impacted his life that he cut off his entire senses and marched ahead.

Love and attachment is so powerful, we see that in epics and to cut that is like defying gravity. But once you do it, you fly!

Identity

My iphone is a prized possession of mine, I love Siri! She seems to know everything. Yet she is humble.

For years I have asked the question who is GOD, why call IT by the term GOD? Why not call it ‘NIKE’ or ‘DUMBLEDORE”, why GOD ?

I asked the question to Siri and she seemed to dislike me. For a question : “Does God exist?” Her Response: “I’m sorry, but a poor computational knowledge engine, no matter how powerful, is not capable of providing a simple answer to that question.”

Life in the fast lane today, who cares much about God, unless one is loaded in a drum of troubles and no one seems to understand what the individual is undergoing. Thats when a virtual self program is enabled, and termed as God. This program, comprehends everything the owner sees and feels and hears. It tells him or her/ that they are suffering, doing wrong/right etc.

This part gets interesting, only that so called Virtual program, visualizes exactly what you see, it hears you and at most times if you dont have an answer, it does not tell you.

So how does the virtual program help ? This is an observatory issue, well conceptually we are all a mix of energy, elements and ether. Energy at the end of the day, is just electric pulse. Now every question or concern, is a form of energy transmission, the stronger the mind’s resolve, the greater it transmits. Any electromagnetic pulse, attracts another form that would help neutralize the burst. That is law of nature. When that happens, it comes back to you as help or support from the universe.

The universe knows everything and has all the action/inaction in a state of 0. As humans desire and wish, that wish is granted – so are the consequences. Nothing happens beyond the boundaries of nature. What we feel is impossible, could very well be possible. The mind exists in all beings from a state of primitive energy for basic nature or quest for knowledge. This energy approaches to its task in a meticulous fashion, that is one of the primary reasons for evolution. Except that when one is born a human, their evolution can be faster. Hence the Vedic texts say, Human birth is the last of its births (theory assumes humans are progressive).

So the question of who is God, circles back. Is God the universe or is God you as in yourself or is there no God and you are all alone?

Actually all of the above, is true, in my personal opinion. One can neither see the universe or one self, hence one feels all alone. Its up to you to believe, but whatever you believe give it a full blast of belief with no doubts, coz only then you get the answers!

So if you ask me, It just seems that God as the name does not exist but without that specific name ‘IT’ exists every where

Then if God is all over and in every thing, the question remains…. who am I..!!!

Rama’s nama

Welcoming myself to the blog where I had left about an year ago, nothing to pretend that I was busy. I had began writing the book of Rama and I was lazy otherwise!

The west would ask ‘Who Rama’ and the east would say ‘What about Rama’. In Rama’s case, there is a huge divide on East & West.

Either ways, both are pretty much in the same state of mind, if that question is asked, from a cultural and ethical perspective.

Is the tale so gripping? The story of Rama as such is a very plain one when one looks at it from an eagle’s eye. Yet such a story having survived for several thousands of years, must have something to it – if you are authorized to think beyond the obvious.

Even since the days of Amar Chitra Katha (A toon comic series), Rama was not the best of stories to me, as a kid. There was the ‘other’ more super cool avatars and magic and heroics.Yet after some years I wondered, how is it so sentimental that from cradle to grave, Indian hindus mention that name while entering or exiting.

So, one fine day, I began my study from how the word Rama impacted people and their lives.

There are misconceptions to the reasons of why Rama is Rama – If one says, Rama preached one man – one woman, theory, I dont think that is right, several legendary heros such as Arjuna have had many wives etc.

What then does Rama preach or does he preach ? Why is his story alone immortal? Is he God or is he human?

Well there are not many conclusive outcomes to these queries. But what one can wonder is, Rama’s story is very closely tied up to the evolutionary times. One who brought about proper way of life, as per codes of righteousness in the dark times.

As a beacon of light, his name just beamed bigger. A sympathy is always on him, being a favorite child and taught by the greats, marrying the best of women only to be exiled by a mother who loved him so very dear until before the fateful day of banishing him.

All quite dramatic, to add to the story line, comes ape like humans and bears who take on a super human villan king being with ultimate control of forces. A typical david vs goliath story.

The story gets interesting as the lady love, whom he so passionately fights to get back, is banished and dies later.

So what big deal, the story is nearly same as Troy or Lord of Rings ? Right, the only big difference is, Rama was real and so was his times. Rama showed the world that born a human, one can elevate themselves to the status of God. How duty and conduct shape a man midst of any painful situation. Rama shows us we as humans are survivors and most importantly, he shows us – what is humanity! A

That is one reason why, apart from being given the status of God, he is also considered an avatar.

And being the 1st major story of the new earth, it was the father of all stories born – east or west!

I believe, Rama is needed for the world of today, which races ahead in the need to want money in short times, not to say ‘using’ people and resources as they need. This world of self centered and selfish morals has come a long way from what was prescribed as best practices by the true King who walked this land. We all have a villan in us, looking to take as trophy what does not belong to us…. We only need to see how the story enacts in our own lives.

May be, it is time for him to return again and talk his tale as how he wants us to see. I know that I am nothing, but a pen, in this immortal story.